new years resolutions

So i guess today will be the day that a bunch of people make new years resolutions this however will not be me. I have made some life goals yes but i did those months ago and not because the new year was coming but because a new me is coming. Dont wait till a new year, or a new birthday, or a reunion to do you and to make yourself feel better. Also don't wait for motivation or willpower i think all those things are crap. Just do what you need to do. Make small goals so your big goals don't seem so big but set them do them and go after what you want to achieve. But not because its a new year but because you want something different in your life.

I guess that about sums up what i had to say. I have taken the better part of a week off of dieting and i am just enjoying family time. I will be back full force on my diet come friday and starting the gym next week with a couple of my friends i never thought i would be excited about going to the gym but i am and excited to start this new chapter in my life changing. Also excited to find out when i might be having my surgery can't wait.

Well i hope my little pearls of wisdom helps someone today
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another goal met

So i maintained my weight this last week and made my weigh in today at the doctors. So what that means is everything will be submitting to the insurance company on monday that i got the approval from the doctor this morning so hopefully i will know in the next two weeks if its a go ahead of not.  I am so excited. How was everyone elses holiday ours was wonderful. A little different then usual since my grandma was sick and the roaster pan died but it worked out ok. I don't really have much else to say i just wanted to update everyone.

the waiting game

OK so first some good news i got the clearance from the head doctor for my surgery so fridays appointment went well. This friday i meet with the surgeon to see if everything is where he wants it and he signs off so we can submit to insurance.  So it occurred to me that i might still be kinda far away from surgery and i asked the nurse who also happens to be my best friend how long after we get the go ahead from insurance would surgery be. She informs me still 4-6 weeks after that so that puts me about 2 months away from surgery and thats providing the insurance company doesn't take there sweet ass time. So i have decided i am going to join the gym early and start moving this butt of mine.  So i will probably up my calories alittle bit but probably only about 100 calories i think ill have a protein shake afterward to help with recovery with my muscles and stuff. Im kinda excited to just get this stuff moving along. I guess thats about it with that stuff for now ill update you again friday and let you know if i atleast maintained my weight during the holidays.

A little tip do not just assume that a package is telling the truth with how much content is in side. I had a bag of sweet potatoes that was suppose to have 6 servings in it and it only had 3. I am telling you this because there are times where i just eat the whole bag of some of the lower calorie veggies but if i don't measure it i might be adding more calories then i am really getting. So just make sure your measuring and counting if thats the options your using for your life change.

I Pray you all have a wonderful Christmas, Pray for those who aren't and help those that you can.

Love you all Merry Christmas, as always feel free to comment, ask questions and share my blog with others.

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Goals

So i don't have a whole lot to say today just wanted to update. So yesterday i was officially over the 50 lbs lost mark. I have lost 51 lbs in less then 4 months, i can honestly say i have never done that on my own before never mind during holiday season so go me. I got to check off one of my goals on my http://dayzeroproject.com/user/gilliebean/list/80812 which is awesome and hopefully much more checks to come.

So this is my before and during picture. Its kinds hard to see the difference cause the first pic im in the pool. but i can see a difference. My bathing-suit isn't cutting into my arms and my boobs are higher. So hard to see but i defiantly can feel the difference. I have one of two very important doctors appointments tomorrow so pray it all goes well and she decides im sane enough to have the surgery. I am so proud of myself for sticking it out through all the curve balls that keep getting thrown at me. Trust me if i can do this you can too.

I guess thats about it for now, as always feel free to share my blog, as questions or make comments.

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stress eating and habits

So you know how they say it take 3 weeks to form new habits, Well i use to think that was bs but i have been overly stress the last couple days between my ex husband and my grandma being badly hurt and needing surgery and it occured to me that i haven't turned to food to eat my feelings away. How awesome is that, so maybe not 3 weeks but for me about 3 months. So im here praying that stays true and that i will continue to deal with life and not try to eat it away.

On the surgery front i am 3 lbs away from making weight so thats exciting hopefully in the next week or two i will know when im having surgery. I guess i don't have much else to say hoping you all are ready for christmas and don't forget the reason for the season celebrate Jesus' birth spend loving quality time with your families and be thankful for having each other.

Sending lots of holiday love.

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extremely frustrating

So i am finding myself this morning having to listen to my own advise and be patient. I haven't lost any weight this week and its extremely frustrating when you have a certain amount to lose by a certain time.
So at this point i still have 5 lbs to lose in 2 weeks which doesn't sound like it would be hard except christmas is between now and my weigh in day, theres problem one, problem two i have a baby shower to attend at a fancy place so you better believe i want to taste the food, and i have cookie making. I have to find away to do what needs to be done and hopefully still lose weight. With  my body not letting go this week it is def putting a kink in my time line. I was hoping to lose 8 lbs or so before the week of christmas so i had a couple pound give for christmas week. Now i am not going to start the awful circle of being upset so i eat crap and then i get my upset and eat more crap i am not going to do that. However i can't say it is easy to be that way. I have to fight all my fat girl impulses that really just want to say fuck it. But i know in my heart of hearts i don't want to just say fuck it i want to say you are doing this and yes you might have a bump but you will get over it and keep on going. So thats what i am doing pushing forward sticking to my plan and praying im down when i need to be. And if i haven't quiet made it to the weight i need to be before my appointment that my doctor sees all the hard work i have put in and lets us file to insurance anyway. So if you all would pray with me that would be great.

Well thats it for now everyone. As always feel free to share my blog, make comments, or ask questions.

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blogs

So i have been reading lots of blogs lately and i wanted to share them with you, some are in the beginning of there journeys some have come full circle.

http://www.300poundsdown.com/  This is the one im currently reading and its great she has had the surgery and so has her brother and he lost 250lbs how awesome is that, this blog is inspiring me and making me realize that even tho this woman and i were the same size how luck i am cause i don't have and real problems besides being fat.

http://perfectlyme355.blogspot.com/  I have read this whole blog and she isn't fairly new to this journey so if your in the beginning this might just be the blog for you to learn and grow with

http://iamawinningloser.blogspot.com/ This lady is over a year in and i have gone back and read her whole blog its very motivating and to see all her obstacles and shes still doing it wonderfully written

http://bbubblyb.blogspot.com/  This is the next one im gonna go threw and read from the beginning but first i must finish the one im reading lol.

Last for now but certainly not least. this blog is awesome and she is teaching you how to love you and except your body where ever you are in your journey i love the way she writes and the topics she is tackling.
http://newfigureforward.blogspot.com/

Now there are much more blogs in my browser waiting for me to read but these are the ones i have tackled all the way or getting ready to tackle and that i suggest to all of you.

Now as for me and my week. I lost 4 lbs this past week which leaves me with 5 more lbs to lose for my surgery. however i don't have tons of time to lose it which mean probably no christmas cookies for me.

I also got myself a Fitbit for christmas and so far so good. I am still learning it but its great it feels just like im wearing a watch which means it doesn't make me feel like i have to go out of my way to use this thing.  Also it syncs up with myfitnesspal.com which means i didn't have to learn a new food tracker which for me was totally exciting. heres the link if you want to check it out. I got my off hsn.com so i could make payments on it and not have to have the full 100 bucks up front.  http://www.fitbit.com/

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Not really sure what to write about today but feel i need to write something. So im so proud of myself which in this condition doesn't happen often.  I have been emotional the last couple days probably cause im not eating my feelings anymore so when they come i have to feel the damn things. So heres my point i haven't eaten my feelings away at all. I feel the feelings and the hunger that isn't really there and move past it and it goes away. The lady i have to see before surgery has been working with me on using a wise mind and not let my emotions take over and its working. I sit i think am i really hungry, whats going on, is eating when i don't need fuel really gonna take away the feeling and the answer is no its just gonna make me feel like shit for screwing up what im trying to hard to achieve. I am also totally excited about the transformation thats happening. using my wise mind, the weight coming off, being an active part in my own life, and i can't wait to achieve all my goals and make new ones, how exciting is that. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel even tho its still so far away.  As for my surgery i have 7 more lbs to lose so we can submit to the insurance yippy.


Now for some food finds
This is preportioned already ready rice how awesome is that and they were only a dollar a piece at wally world.

Now i know you can't really tell what this is but its damn yummy. I take fake meat crumbles brown them a little bit, with stewed tomatoes, onions, mushrooms and yellow squash and yummy, makes a lot of food, i think all together it was 300 calories but kept me full for hours its a good one to make.

This is my version of fried potatoes and onions, its only 100 calories and i didn't fry them lol. I used yellow baby potatoes which are 80 calories for 3/4 of a cup diced up, I but some spray butter in the pan just to keep it from sticking, and sauteed it up with the lid on to make moisture and yummy yummy. The other thing on the plate is a fake meat black bean burger and these have tons of flavor and only 110 calories. Look at all that food for dinner and only 210 calories how awesome. 

Well i guess thats it for now, as always feel free to comment, share, and ask questions i love hearing from you all. 

happy life changing everyone

Turkey day

So how did everyone survive the big day. For me I allowed this to be my high calorie day so i could enjoy the festivities and not feel deprived. I did however not eat the things i didn't enjoy when a couple months ago i would have inhaled it anyway. I didn't over eat and i didn't bring home left overs. Thanksgiving day will remain only on thanksgiving day this year and for all the rest of the years to come.

Now on to my new find of the week. I have discovered the difference between steel cut oatmeal and irish oatmeal they are very very different.

Now this is what it looks like before you cook it. So see very different. The texture when its finished is also very different. You have to cook this on the stove and its doesn't seem to matter how long you cook it, it has a little bite to it. Now i don't mind it so much now that i know its not as smooth. It has 150 calories in a serving. Now when you look at the back of the cartoon you'll see a serving is only 1/4 of a cup before its cooked. Well this renders just as much if not more oatmeal as regular cooking oatmeal. I find it very filling.

Also i learned a little tip from http://www.hungry-girl.com/ If you are a volume eater when making oatmeal add extra water and cook it longer. It will blow up your oatmeal more without adding calories how awesome is that.

I think i have mentioned this in a post before but i haven't really reviewed it for you. First of all know i have never found a sweetener besides sugar that i like. They all seem to have some kind of after taste thats gross or they just aren't sweet at all. I can't see how equal or sweetnlow are enjoyed by anyone but thats not really the point. This monk fruit stuff is awesome. No after taste and its super sweet i put it in my oatmeal and warm tea that im learning to like. it has no calories another bonus.

I found these breakfast sandwiches at walmart and they are awesome. look at that only 160 calories for a breakfast sandwich. I paid i think 5 bucks for this and there are 4 sandwich's in there so a good deal low calorie and 10g of protein. 

these also came from walmart there are 8 in a pack and under 4 bucks. I am really liking these fake meat things. they are really filling and have nice flavor. This burger is 110 calories and 10g of protein. I put this burger on that breakfast sandwich for dinner and yummo is really all there is to say. quick easy almost no work tons of flavor and very satisfying. 

Well i guess thats about it for now. I would love to hear about your turkey day let me know how it went. 

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A couple things actually. So i decided over the weekend to make a goal list. This list will be ever changing but i want to accomplish so many things that i didnt even realize i wanted to do. So heres my list i hope this encourages you all to make your own list.

http://dayzeroproject.com/user/gilliebean/list/80812

On to food things.

So first of all these egg beaters are awesome i challenge anyone that hasn't ever had egg beaters or thinks they don't like this try the southwestern style ones you will not know the difference and the calorie count is the same i think as the regular egg beaters. Those morning star breakfast sausages hit the spot now they are small, but its only 80 calories and it has 10 gram of protein. also when you think about it neither of these items are expensive anywhere. they came from walmart and i think egg beaters are 3ish bucks and the morning star were under 5 i think and have 8 patties in the box.

Now this is the dinner i made for myself friday night. This is a pasta dish and the whole meal was 270 calories. That was mostly from the chicken sausage that i put in it that was 180 calories. now the pasta isn't  your standard pasta. It is this stuff in the picture below

now you can have this whole bag for 30 calories and if your a pasta freak this would be a great alternative. With that said you have to drain it and rinse it really really well then pat it dry really well before you heat it up. DO NOT INHALE UNTIL NOODLES ARE RINSED, i think i would have liked them better had i known that. these noodles are a tofu noodle and the liquid its packed in smells like rotten fish. they don't really have a taste per say but they are kind of chewy so i suggest cutting them up well. I am not totally convinced i will eat them again but i do have a couple more backs so i might try it now that i know what i know.

These little babies are a great low calorie snack that will not make you feel like your restricting your calories. 

Well thats about it for now i gotta run to work. As always feel free to share my blog, comment, or ask questions.

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dont judge a book by its cover

So todays blog was actually inspired by my very small skinny friend from high school. And here is why i think everyone should share my blog or blogs like mine cause not only fat people can learn from it. So my extremely tiny friend and i were talking the other day about my weight loss, and she informed me that she needed to go on a diet. Now she is maybe 5'2 and at her highest weight 130 lbs so in my world she is nuts right. Well turns out her good cholesterol is over double what it should be. So in this discussion we decide she should weigh like 800 lbs cause of the crap she eats. So even tho she is skinny she will still need to go threw all the same things i did with withdrawal and finding a new way to do things.

So look at us side by side, one would think just by looking at us that i was the unhealthy one and thats not the case. I have a couple points with this, one just cause your small doesn't mean you don't need to go to the doctor and get checked out, two that you or anyone else is automatically healthy or not. I want to share another picture with you all.

All of the breakfasts on the left are full 300 calorie breakfasts while on the left you only get a portion of what you order to have 300 calories.  Muffins first of all are a trap they are almost never healthy and they are packed full of calories. The second picture you wouldn't think ordering an omelet would be bad but look at those calories if it isn't made right its to many. And who would think you could have all those waffles and fruit for 300 calories yummy.

Anyway just some stuff to think about i also want to post a link to a story i read yesterday on facebook. another great example of don't judge a book by its cover.

http://the-wopr.newsvine.com/_news/2013/09/19/20572264-church-members-mistreat-homeless-man-in-church-unaware-it-is-their-pastor-in-disguise

Please read this short story.

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oatmeal

Ok so i love oatmeal, well i thought i could only love the processed prepackaged stuff after all its what i was use to right. Well this morning i did a comparison on the difference. So i have started eating Irish oatmeal which i can't tell what the difference is between that and steel cut accept like a buck so i went Irish. Now i sweeten it up a little i put some cinnamon in mine and some monk fruit sweetener neither one of which have calories i also put a quarter cup of blueberries in there. By the way blueberries you can eat a ton and not really be adding alot of calories to your diet you might want to try it out. I am finding out sticking to my 800-900 calories a day isn't so bad when i beef it up with low calorie freshness. ok back to my point.

Ok so this is my oatmeal and owens oatmeal this morning. Mine is the Irish oatmeal that i have to make in a huge bowl that my son uses to make his roman noodles in the microwave and owens in is a little kids bowl. Its kinda hard to tell in this pic. however this is the same amount of calories and mine is more then double the volume of his. And because its not processed as much your belly has to work hard and it stays fuller longer also.

Now for one of my finds yesterday. So i wouldn't call this cheap by definitions  however when you consider you would probably spend at least double this to eat at mcdonalds just once its not. So i paid less the five bucks for this and two come in a pack. But wow what a treat its only 180 calories of not feeling like your restricting your calories put a cup of veggies or fruit with this and you have 200 calories of healthy and not feeling like your missing a thing how awesome is that.

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my weekend

So i haven't eaten the best over the weekend however i didn't eat out of control either.  I had my planned high calorie day on friday and actually didn't eat as much as planned so that was good. Saturday however i was a little emotional and even tho i didn't go over board i ate a big bowl of cereal and the rest of the day was perfect. Then yesterday i had planned to have a high calorie day cause i knew i was going out for a birthday party to a place i love, so i figured i just wouldn't have a high calorie day again till thanksgiving which is fine by me. Well i shocked myself at dinner. We went to logans and i ordered a meal i have ordered numerous times in the past. There were apps ordered and soup. I before this journey would have devoured an app, my soup, all of my meal and a dessert. And not necessarily been full. Well last night i had 1 onion peel, 1 potato skin, half of my soup, 2 bites of my potatoes, 1 portion of my fish, and half my veggies. then the baby and i shared a half a small slice of cake and i was stuffed for hours after that. So were i might not have been perfect that was so much better then it use to be i was so proud of myself. i didn't deprive myself of what i really wanted to taste and i didn't eat it all just cause it was in front of me. To me that is one hell of a non scale victory.

Also i decided i can't really see the weight loss so ill try on some clothes, i got a pair of size 28 jeans on button and zipped and a 4x shirt with room to spare. I normally wear a huge 6x shirt so i could feel it when i put these clothes on yesterday.

So i hope this blog is helping others it sure is helping me. 

We will speak again soon, as always feel free to ask questions, make comments, and share my blog with others. 

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non scale victories

Ok so i have been thinking the last couple days i really need to blog but i don't really have much to discuss. So i thought and i thought and decided that even tho i have a huge on the scale victory this week (5lbs) that not everyone had a scale victory so i thought i would share some of my none scale victories also.

So for me i still cant see a difference even tho i have lost a total of 39 lbs but i have noticed some small scale victories. So the most noticeable for me is being more comfortable using the rest room. This particular one im not proud of but its the sad truth of being as fat as i was. I also noticed today when i took my car to get the oil changed that the seats that i couldn't hardly sit in 3 months ago i sat in comfortably today. I am waiting for my clothes to feel different but since i wear my clothes big anyway i probably will not notice that one until they are falling off of me. Also just general getting around is starting to get easier. Not nearly as easy as it will be once this journey is in maintenance mode but easier.  So those are my non scale victories for now feel free to share yours.

ON a different note 12 more lbs until i get to file to the insurance for my surgery im hoping this comes off quickly im now shooting for surgery at the beginning of the year.

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discovery

A couple awesome discoveries this week. One water weight sucks but it will leave. So since my last blog the 5 lbs of water weight left plus 2 real pounds so im happy with that. I would love to lose 5 lbs a week but i know thats unrealistic and im pretty content with my current life style so its all good. thats a total lose of 34 lbs and a 17 lbs till i can file to the insurance for the surgery so im slowly getting there.

I have also discovered the power of egg beaters. The egg white egg beaters you can have 3/4 of a cup for 100 calories thats a decent amount of eggs and if you had fresh veggies you could have an awesome omelet.

I also discovered the beauty of progresso soup. now with all canned anything if your water your salt you might want to look at that but since im mostly counting calories and trying to get the most bang for my buck this does the job. Now you will notice this isn't the pointed progresso soup that they sell with im sure is low sodium this is just there normal full flavor soup. This particular type of soup is 120 calories a serving which i don't know anyone that only eats one serving of soup most people eat the whole can. So for 240 calories i had what felt like a totally normal none life style change lunch. i am doing my best to stick to this extremely low calorie diet and feel as close to human as possible and share that with all you.

I have also learned the beauty of chicken bacon. Now you will notice i also only paid a buck for that pack of chicken bacon that i got at sharp shopper. So i thought well let me give it a shot i probably will not like it after all i don't like turkey bacon but lets give it a try. So this chicken bacon is 25 calories and 2g of protein a slice how awesome is that. So i cooked up four slices last night. And boy did it hit the spot. Now no its not bacon but its enough like real bacon that on a sandwhich or something it might just cure that craving. 

I suppose thats about it for now i go back to the doc on monday so ill let you all know then how it goes. As always feel free to ask questions and share my blog on your pages.

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feelings

Ok so as im learning today when your going threw a transformation like this your gonna feel things you haven't felt before. OK so anyone who has had an addiction should know you usually have one to keep you from feeling something. Or you feel things but your addiction dulls it so you aren't really getting the full effect of the feeling your feeling. Ok so i was feeling skinny today so i decided to step on the scale early first off this is a bad idea. I am up 5 lbs however i know this is just water cause i have done nothing to gain actual weight. I have been on target with my calories and even on my high calorie day i was healthy about it so i know logically its just water or cause im on my monthly which always screws up the scale. So anyway even tho i knew this in my head i couldn't help but feel defeated. SO what do i do i throw a pity party for myself text my best friend in the world who tells me pretty much get over it. its just another hurdle in my journey and just to keep moving forward. Which i also knew i told her im not gonna eat my way out of it. Which is a fight you have to fight with yourself when you have a food addiction. You first tell yourself whats the point. Whats the point in watching everything you put in your mouth if the weight will not come off anyway. Well the point is it will come off but you have battles to fight and getting over this hurdle and not letting it defeat you is the lesson  you have to learn. You also have to learn to deal with your moment. Feel your feelings and have your own damn pity party if you need to but don't turn to your old buddies food and smokes to not feel the feelings. Which is exactly what i didn't do i turned to my best friend who i knew would know what to say to me even if its not what i wanted to hear. You have to feel again and i have stuffed my feelings for so long it takes an adjustment period for sure but don't be afraid of them. Know the overwhelming feeling will subside just give it some time and it will pass. Don't let your addict self convenience the part of you that wants to change that it isn't worth it. It is totally worth it. So yes i might not be able to have my surgery as soon as i would like to have it but I will have it, when im meant to and when im ready. I know this journey will take time with or without surgery. The surgery is just a tool if i don't learn how to deal with life now before it the chances of gaining it all back after is great anyway so i will keep on my journey however long is takes. Some parts of this journey will be for life and i know that. Old habits die hard BUT THEY DO DIE,  i promise.


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sticking it out

OK as you all know i was a little discouraged when i weighed in on monday and i only lost a pound however my best friend told me look at a pound of ground burger you lost one of those and so yes that was a helpful visual and i decided that when i began this journey i was going to stick it out no matter what happened even if there were bad days. So i changed a couple things first my weigh in days are now going to be friday mornings cause monday morning is way to close to my high calorie day to be accurate of the hard work i have put in the rest of the week.  Also i am going to use a visual for how much weight the weight i have lost looks like. So even if i cant see the change somewhere on my body i was missing a whole pound of hamburger from some where.

So last monday i was down one of these. Well because i didn't get to discouraged and kept on my path i am down 5 more pounds since monday. Yes you read that right since monday morning i have lost 5 lbs i am so happy with that. It also shows that not giving into temptation pays off. Last night was Halloween and who knows we as parents always pick out a couple of the best candy and eat them ourselves. Well last night i was determined i wasnt going to give into temptation and i was going to leave the fun all to the children. When we got home and the kids were going threw to find all there best candy they starting sharing with there momma who is to old to trick or treat and i gave it back to them. I was so proud of myself there was a time not to long ago i wouldnt have even thought about turning down a peanut butter cup but i totally did. My mom also got Chinese food for dinner which i love and i turned that down as well. I said i have one high calorie day a week and today isn't it so no thank you. She then began to tell me how i would probably be fine to stay in my calorie allotment for the day if i ate thus and so and i continued to decline i wasn't sure how many calories where in it and i wasn't willing to risk going over my calories for the day no matter how great the food looked or smelled. This is all a huge accomplishment for this fat chick. It means i am on the road to healthy i am on the road to breaking these addictions and on the road of self control, self worth, and health i am so excited for whats next for me. OK well everyone have a great weekend and remember if you are eating that candy count it in your plan whatever your plan is. 

Happy life changing everyone. as always feel free to ask questions and share my blog

tomorrows

OK so i want to encourage everyone to do one thing a week to work towards a healthier you.  You hear all the time o ill start tomorrow, next week, o after the holidays. Tomorrows never come but todays are here now. I have been reading and reading blogs of others who have gone before me and done this. For those that know me well you know reading isn't my strong suit but im doing it anyway, another life change for me. Anyway i digress, I read about a man who lost almost 200 lbs by changing just the little things and no exercise  at all. Thats right none he had some kind of issue where he couldn't. It took him 21 months to do this and he started by just changing little things. So like if he went to mcdonalds and normally got a big mac meal super sized he would get it regular sized and take the middle bun out and eat it. anywhere you can cut calories do it. You don't always have to go into this things full force alot of times that fails people cause they let them selves down to easily. Also just cause you get off track for a meal, a day, a few days, is no reason to throw a whole life change away. So what you screwed up one day ok well so that day you had more calories then you should doesn't mean you should continue to not care and give up jump back onto your journey and keep on trucking.  IF out of 30 days you screw up 5 times you still have 25 days where you rocked it and you will see that translate into your journey. Also plateaus you will have them do not let them discourage you this usually means your doing what your suppose to and your body isn't ready for change but hang in there it will let it go once it knows you aren't gonna give in. Ok so i hope this helps just one person today to feel encouraged you are capable you can do this and you are worthy. So no more tomorrows change something no matter how small today.


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over coming disappointment

Ok so as you all know i have cut my calories to 800-900 a day so when i stood on the scale this morning and i only lost 1lb i was very upset. But then i had to turn it around and change my way of thinking. I lost i didn't gain and its perfectly normal at week 3 to hit a wall but you must stick with it and it will come off. So i will be excited about my pound its one pound closer to where i am going, its one more pound off my fat butt and its one more victory no matter how small.

Ok so for some kinda fun stuff. Who loves peanut butter? ME ME i love peanut just about anything and i love my peanut butter. So who knows peanut butter has a decent amount of protein in it? ME ME well who knows that peanut butter also has a good bit of calories for only 2 little damn table spoons of peanut butter? ME ME well i have discovered and great alternative. Now unlike a veggie burger not really satisfying  the craving for a regular burger this stuff actually does take care of the peanut butter craving.

Now a couple things you should know they do sell this in stores however i haven't been able to find it i got this at my baratric clinic. it is powdered i know that kind of turns you off of it, it did me to but wait. So i get this stuff which by the way comes in chocolate also. i read the label it has 45 calories for 2 table spoons yes you read that right 45 and 5 grams of protein. So i make this stuff which isn't hard you just mix with water and at first i wasn't found of it and didn't think i would be able to use it instead of peanut butter i mean come on its a powder. Well the second time i made it i put it in the fridge and it totally helped the consistency problem i was feeling it had and i have been eating it with my apple slices every since. so for just a little over a 100 calories i have a great snack that totally cures the craving of that guilted peanut butter.


Ok all well have a great week if i don't post again and happy life changing everyone

5lbs

Ok so i know its been awhile since i blogged but as i told you it would be with this weird diet i put myself on. I wouldn't call it a liquid diet but a calorie restricted diet. So I am restricting my calories to 800-900 a day. Please don't follow in my footsteps if you haven't cleared it through a doctor first. And you most certainly when doing this don't want those 800-900 calories to be just anything. they need to be protein filled and nutritious.

So since monday thats seven days with one higher calorie day on saturday i lost 5lbs. So im totally excited and im gonna add some exercise this week and hope that helps speed up the process some. its not gonna be tons of exercise but something on the xbox probably. So i will share with you what i have been eating on my not very excited diet.
First of all this is the guideline my doctor gave me for meal replacement shakes. You have to be careful there are lots of them out that, that appear healthy and you could have gone to mcdonalds for whats in them so make sure you are reading your labels.

So what i have been doing is eating every three hours. So first meal of the day i have a protein shake. 

All of these follow those guidelines and aren't gross lol

Then 3 hours later i have a 100 calorie snack. now this can be whatever you want it to be. Mine are either a small apple and a cheese stick, a greek yogurt or a huge amount of veggies depending on how hungry i am. 

but for those out there that are like me and what quantity on your plate veggies are the way to go. 4 cups of cauliflower is 100 calories however thats a shit ton of cauliflower so i might have a cup and a cheese stick instead. 

Now since i work night shift i try to save a shake and two hundred calories to eat while im there.

Know this if you do decide to do this you will be hungry, its takes time to fight the addict in side and all the bad habits you have. So when your hungry drink water and lots of it. Also keep busy and remind yourself you will eat again in a couple of hours your not really starving you just think you are. Just like you would tell your kids if they were still screaming about being hungry even tho they just ate a 5 course meal.

If anyone has any questions or comments please feel free to give them to me and ill do my best

Much love to you all and happy life changing

so so

Well thats how im feeling about my appointment today. So first the good things that happened i lost 2 more pounds. I know that isn't much however since i quit smoking and had a super stressful weekend and i still lost something thats pretty damn awesome. The other good thing at the appointment no sleep study yippy those things suck. Now for the bad i have to lose 30 lbs before we can submit to the insurance company for approval. So this could set me back getting my surgery before christmas, However now is the time to put my head down dig deep and get this shit done. So i am going to give myself one binge day to eat the couple things i have been craving then im going all liquid until these 30lbs are gone. yes its gonna be hard but it is doable it just sucks. But this like all the rest of this stuff is mind over matter. And i am stronger now then i have ever been so i know i got this.  Now with all this happening know my blogs will be fewer cause i will not be cooking and i will not have much to talk about lol. I will keep everyone updated and let you know how i am feeling during the process however. So hopefully i can knock this 30lbs out in a month or so and be on my way.


Happy life changing everyone

excited

Im getting excited i meet with the surgeon on wed to discuss whatever needs discussing and ill get weighed and know how im doing. Meeting with the surgeon is just one more step on the road to getting my surgery. Then before the end of the month i meet with Pam the shrink. They have to make sure your mentally capable of handling the surgery which i am lol im sure that will go fine. Hopefully the surgeon will not make me do any more then blood test before surgery cause a sleep study could take awhile and will hold everything up. However if he doesn't make me there is a good chance i could have this surgery before christmas how exciting is that.  Ok on to food stuff i got these from the store the other day. They are 50 calories and 6g of protein pretty awesome stuff right there.

Confession

OK so I haven't been so good this weekend however I still haven't had a smoke and I didn't binge. I did however take myself on a date and enjoyed my dinner I didn't eat it all in one setting and I treated myself to sweet frog but I only filled the small cup half way and no toppings. Then today at the pumpkin patch we were all starving and not a healthy thing in sight so I did chose cheesy fries hoping they would be more filling then the other options. Other then those two meals I have been very good this weekend. So you might be wondering why I'm sharing this well there's two reasons one to be honest with anyone following my story so people know yes I'm not perfect or am I trying to be all the time. And the other to show just cause you make a choice to have a high calorie meal doesn't mean it needs to last past that meal and that you don't have to let it ruin your whole diet or progress on your life change.

Hope you all had a great weekend and happy life changing everyone.

  OK so todays lesson just cause the box says its tuna helper doesn't mean thats what it has to become when your done. first things first i paid a buck for this box of tuna helper thats suppose to feed 5. It has 130 calories as packaged which since i didn't prepare it like the package says we will go by that and add the calories from the rest. 

Now you will remember that i used a pack of these bratwurst a couple weeks ago and i payed a buck for them. well i only used 3 of them for what i made for dinner. I also bulked up the whole dinner with a quarter pack of mixed frozen veggies.

and this is what it looks like when its done and it was 422 calories and a buck fifty to make and fed us all with a little left over for lunch.

the last thing i found these today at weis now i don't normal shop there unless they are having great 10 for 10 sales but i wanted to see what they had today and i was near there so i went in. So i found these little gems 10 for 10. now this particular one is 190 calories and 30 g of protein and only 6 g of sugar it doesn't get much better then that. Now i don't recommend drinking your calories unless your replacing a meal with it. now if you decide to go get these know there are 3 different flavors and the labels on the other flavors are kinda tricky so make sure you read them well just so you know what your putting in your body. the other thing you should know is the flavor of this i guess cause it has less sugar is not exactly chocolate milk like but close enough and not horrible like a lot of those high protein shakes you get. so try it you might just like it and its a great alternative for those busy mornings.

So i am officially nicotine free for over a week, its harder then hell but totally worth it. My strength is going to be tested this weekend but i will be ok everything is a choice and i will make the choice to do healthy things through my stressful weekend instead of things that will only destroy me.

Ok so this has been my breakfast of choice the last couple of days. I don't know why none of my food photographs well but it taste fab and takes maybe 5 minutes to make. So i toast two slices of bread put some spray butter on it then i slice some avocado put it on the bread and then i make two dippy eggs. Now this is a higher calorie breakfast but its not gonna brake the bank, its healthy and very satisfying 

Now this i got from sharp shopper 3.31 for almost 1.5 pounds of meat. and i turned this into this.

I put it in the slow cooker and let it cook literly all day and it just fell apart. then i put just a little bit of bbq sauce on it for sandwiches its 160 calories for 4 oz so pretty awesome. O and a winner with the children

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Ok so you see what looks like a yellow square. Those my friends are wonton wrappers and you can use them for a ton of things. 4 sheets is a serving and is 80 calories. I use them to make like pot stickers. Or dipping chips. I put them in a pile and cut them into fours now a cookie sheet will hold two servings of chips. I spray butter the cookie sheet then lay out my chips and spray butter the top of the chips and put just a sprinkle of sea salt on them. Then i bake them on 350 for 10 to 15 minutes watch them they go from not done to burnt really quick.

This is what they look like when they are done.

Now this is what i had for lunch yesterday. I tried that chicken salad with avacado i have been seeing on facebook. If i were going to make it again i would use fresh chicken not canned like i did and i would use more avacado. I did put a squeeze of low fat mircle whip and it seemed to help the canned chicken. this whole dish was 518 calories now mind you that was 2 servings of chips and 2.5 servings of the chicken salad stuff with 30g of protein i was very satisfied after i ate this.

This was dinner and it was 350 calories of yumminess. Those little potatoes are awesome they are called baby dutch yellow potatoes and they are only 80 calories for 3/4 of a cup what a great way to get a potato fix. Now its hard to tell but that is panko crusted pork chop. I did this by using some egg white egg beaters, panko and i seasoned the crumbs.  i put the chops in the eggs then the crumbs and put them on a baking sheet. i put them in the oven at 425 for 15 minutes then i flipped them and put them in for 17 minutes more now these are really thick chops so if yours are skinny your gonna want to use less time. then we had some tomato slices they are a great way to throw some color in there for little calories.

the baby is crying so no time for spell check today sorry i gotta go happy life changing everyone.