Turkey day

So how did everyone survive the big day. For me I allowed this to be my high calorie day so i could enjoy the festivities and not feel deprived. I did however not eat the things i didn't enjoy when a couple months ago i would have inhaled it anyway. I didn't over eat and i didn't bring home left overs. Thanksgiving day will remain only on thanksgiving day this year and for all the rest of the years to come.

Now on to my new find of the week. I have discovered the difference between steel cut oatmeal and irish oatmeal they are very very different.

Now this is what it looks like before you cook it. So see very different. The texture when its finished is also very different. You have to cook this on the stove and its doesn't seem to matter how long you cook it, it has a little bite to it. Now i don't mind it so much now that i know its not as smooth. It has 150 calories in a serving. Now when you look at the back of the cartoon you'll see a serving is only 1/4 of a cup before its cooked. Well this renders just as much if not more oatmeal as regular cooking oatmeal. I find it very filling.

Also i learned a little tip from http://www.hungry-girl.com/ If you are a volume eater when making oatmeal add extra water and cook it longer. It will blow up your oatmeal more without adding calories how awesome is that.

I think i have mentioned this in a post before but i haven't really reviewed it for you. First of all know i have never found a sweetener besides sugar that i like. They all seem to have some kind of after taste thats gross or they just aren't sweet at all. I can't see how equal or sweetnlow are enjoyed by anyone but thats not really the point. This monk fruit stuff is awesome. No after taste and its super sweet i put it in my oatmeal and warm tea that im learning to like. it has no calories another bonus.

I found these breakfast sandwiches at walmart and they are awesome. look at that only 160 calories for a breakfast sandwich. I paid i think 5 bucks for this and there are 4 sandwich's in there so a good deal low calorie and 10g of protein. 

these also came from walmart there are 8 in a pack and under 4 bucks. I am really liking these fake meat things. they are really filling and have nice flavor. This burger is 110 calories and 10g of protein. I put this burger on that breakfast sandwich for dinner and yummo is really all there is to say. quick easy almost no work tons of flavor and very satisfying. 

Well i guess thats about it for now. I would love to hear about your turkey day let me know how it went. 

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A couple things actually. So i decided over the weekend to make a goal list. This list will be ever changing but i want to accomplish so many things that i didnt even realize i wanted to do. So heres my list i hope this encourages you all to make your own list.

http://dayzeroproject.com/user/gilliebean/list/80812

On to food things.

So first of all these egg beaters are awesome i challenge anyone that hasn't ever had egg beaters or thinks they don't like this try the southwestern style ones you will not know the difference and the calorie count is the same i think as the regular egg beaters. Those morning star breakfast sausages hit the spot now they are small, but its only 80 calories and it has 10 gram of protein. also when you think about it neither of these items are expensive anywhere. they came from walmart and i think egg beaters are 3ish bucks and the morning star were under 5 i think and have 8 patties in the box.

Now this is the dinner i made for myself friday night. This is a pasta dish and the whole meal was 270 calories. That was mostly from the chicken sausage that i put in it that was 180 calories. now the pasta isn't  your standard pasta. It is this stuff in the picture below

now you can have this whole bag for 30 calories and if your a pasta freak this would be a great alternative. With that said you have to drain it and rinse it really really well then pat it dry really well before you heat it up. DO NOT INHALE UNTIL NOODLES ARE RINSED, i think i would have liked them better had i known that. these noodles are a tofu noodle and the liquid its packed in smells like rotten fish. they don't really have a taste per say but they are kind of chewy so i suggest cutting them up well. I am not totally convinced i will eat them again but i do have a couple more backs so i might try it now that i know what i know.

These little babies are a great low calorie snack that will not make you feel like your restricting your calories. 

Well thats about it for now i gotta run to work. As always feel free to share my blog, comment, or ask questions.

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dont judge a book by its cover

So todays blog was actually inspired by my very small skinny friend from high school. And here is why i think everyone should share my blog or blogs like mine cause not only fat people can learn from it. So my extremely tiny friend and i were talking the other day about my weight loss, and she informed me that she needed to go on a diet. Now she is maybe 5'2 and at her highest weight 130 lbs so in my world she is nuts right. Well turns out her good cholesterol is over double what it should be. So in this discussion we decide she should weigh like 800 lbs cause of the crap she eats. So even tho she is skinny she will still need to go threw all the same things i did with withdrawal and finding a new way to do things.

So look at us side by side, one would think just by looking at us that i was the unhealthy one and thats not the case. I have a couple points with this, one just cause your small doesn't mean you don't need to go to the doctor and get checked out, two that you or anyone else is automatically healthy or not. I want to share another picture with you all.

All of the breakfasts on the left are full 300 calorie breakfasts while on the left you only get a portion of what you order to have 300 calories.  Muffins first of all are a trap they are almost never healthy and they are packed full of calories. The second picture you wouldn't think ordering an omelet would be bad but look at those calories if it isn't made right its to many. And who would think you could have all those waffles and fruit for 300 calories yummy.

Anyway just some stuff to think about i also want to post a link to a story i read yesterday on facebook. another great example of don't judge a book by its cover.

http://the-wopr.newsvine.com/_news/2013/09/19/20572264-church-members-mistreat-homeless-man-in-church-unaware-it-is-their-pastor-in-disguise

Please read this short story.

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oatmeal

Ok so i love oatmeal, well i thought i could only love the processed prepackaged stuff after all its what i was use to right. Well this morning i did a comparison on the difference. So i have started eating Irish oatmeal which i can't tell what the difference is between that and steel cut accept like a buck so i went Irish. Now i sweeten it up a little i put some cinnamon in mine and some monk fruit sweetener neither one of which have calories i also put a quarter cup of blueberries in there. By the way blueberries you can eat a ton and not really be adding alot of calories to your diet you might want to try it out. I am finding out sticking to my 800-900 calories a day isn't so bad when i beef it up with low calorie freshness. ok back to my point.

Ok so this is my oatmeal and owens oatmeal this morning. Mine is the Irish oatmeal that i have to make in a huge bowl that my son uses to make his roman noodles in the microwave and owens in is a little kids bowl. Its kinda hard to tell in this pic. however this is the same amount of calories and mine is more then double the volume of his. And because its not processed as much your belly has to work hard and it stays fuller longer also.

Now for one of my finds yesterday. So i wouldn't call this cheap by definitions  however when you consider you would probably spend at least double this to eat at mcdonalds just once its not. So i paid less the five bucks for this and two come in a pack. But wow what a treat its only 180 calories of not feeling like your restricting your calories put a cup of veggies or fruit with this and you have 200 calories of healthy and not feeling like your missing a thing how awesome is that.

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my weekend

So i haven't eaten the best over the weekend however i didn't eat out of control either.  I had my planned high calorie day on friday and actually didn't eat as much as planned so that was good. Saturday however i was a little emotional and even tho i didn't go over board i ate a big bowl of cereal and the rest of the day was perfect. Then yesterday i had planned to have a high calorie day cause i knew i was going out for a birthday party to a place i love, so i figured i just wouldn't have a high calorie day again till thanksgiving which is fine by me. Well i shocked myself at dinner. We went to logans and i ordered a meal i have ordered numerous times in the past. There were apps ordered and soup. I before this journey would have devoured an app, my soup, all of my meal and a dessert. And not necessarily been full. Well last night i had 1 onion peel, 1 potato skin, half of my soup, 2 bites of my potatoes, 1 portion of my fish, and half my veggies. then the baby and i shared a half a small slice of cake and i was stuffed for hours after that. So were i might not have been perfect that was so much better then it use to be i was so proud of myself. i didn't deprive myself of what i really wanted to taste and i didn't eat it all just cause it was in front of me. To me that is one hell of a non scale victory.

Also i decided i can't really see the weight loss so ill try on some clothes, i got a pair of size 28 jeans on button and zipped and a 4x shirt with room to spare. I normally wear a huge 6x shirt so i could feel it when i put these clothes on yesterday.

So i hope this blog is helping others it sure is helping me. 

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non scale victories

Ok so i have been thinking the last couple days i really need to blog but i don't really have much to discuss. So i thought and i thought and decided that even tho i have a huge on the scale victory this week (5lbs) that not everyone had a scale victory so i thought i would share some of my none scale victories also.

So for me i still cant see a difference even tho i have lost a total of 39 lbs but i have noticed some small scale victories. So the most noticeable for me is being more comfortable using the rest room. This particular one im not proud of but its the sad truth of being as fat as i was. I also noticed today when i took my car to get the oil changed that the seats that i couldn't hardly sit in 3 months ago i sat in comfortably today. I am waiting for my clothes to feel different but since i wear my clothes big anyway i probably will not notice that one until they are falling off of me. Also just general getting around is starting to get easier. Not nearly as easy as it will be once this journey is in maintenance mode but easier.  So those are my non scale victories for now feel free to share yours.

ON a different note 12 more lbs until i get to file to the insurance for my surgery im hoping this comes off quickly im now shooting for surgery at the beginning of the year.

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discovery

A couple awesome discoveries this week. One water weight sucks but it will leave. So since my last blog the 5 lbs of water weight left plus 2 real pounds so im happy with that. I would love to lose 5 lbs a week but i know thats unrealistic and im pretty content with my current life style so its all good. thats a total lose of 34 lbs and a 17 lbs till i can file to the insurance for the surgery so im slowly getting there.

I have also discovered the power of egg beaters. The egg white egg beaters you can have 3/4 of a cup for 100 calories thats a decent amount of eggs and if you had fresh veggies you could have an awesome omelet.

I also discovered the beauty of progresso soup. now with all canned anything if your water your salt you might want to look at that but since im mostly counting calories and trying to get the most bang for my buck this does the job. Now you will notice this isn't the pointed progresso soup that they sell with im sure is low sodium this is just there normal full flavor soup. This particular type of soup is 120 calories a serving which i don't know anyone that only eats one serving of soup most people eat the whole can. So for 240 calories i had what felt like a totally normal none life style change lunch. i am doing my best to stick to this extremely low calorie diet and feel as close to human as possible and share that with all you.

I have also learned the beauty of chicken bacon. Now you will notice i also only paid a buck for that pack of chicken bacon that i got at sharp shopper. So i thought well let me give it a shot i probably will not like it after all i don't like turkey bacon but lets give it a try. So this chicken bacon is 25 calories and 2g of protein a slice how awesome is that. So i cooked up four slices last night. And boy did it hit the spot. Now no its not bacon but its enough like real bacon that on a sandwhich or something it might just cure that craving. 

I suppose thats about it for now i go back to the doc on monday so ill let you all know then how it goes. As always feel free to ask questions and share my blog on your pages.

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feelings

Ok so as im learning today when your going threw a transformation like this your gonna feel things you haven't felt before. OK so anyone who has had an addiction should know you usually have one to keep you from feeling something. Or you feel things but your addiction dulls it so you aren't really getting the full effect of the feeling your feeling. Ok so i was feeling skinny today so i decided to step on the scale early first off this is a bad idea. I am up 5 lbs however i know this is just water cause i have done nothing to gain actual weight. I have been on target with my calories and even on my high calorie day i was healthy about it so i know logically its just water or cause im on my monthly which always screws up the scale. So anyway even tho i knew this in my head i couldn't help but feel defeated. SO what do i do i throw a pity party for myself text my best friend in the world who tells me pretty much get over it. its just another hurdle in my journey and just to keep moving forward. Which i also knew i told her im not gonna eat my way out of it. Which is a fight you have to fight with yourself when you have a food addiction. You first tell yourself whats the point. Whats the point in watching everything you put in your mouth if the weight will not come off anyway. Well the point is it will come off but you have battles to fight and getting over this hurdle and not letting it defeat you is the lesson  you have to learn. You also have to learn to deal with your moment. Feel your feelings and have your own damn pity party if you need to but don't turn to your old buddies food and smokes to not feel the feelings. Which is exactly what i didn't do i turned to my best friend who i knew would know what to say to me even if its not what i wanted to hear. You have to feel again and i have stuffed my feelings for so long it takes an adjustment period for sure but don't be afraid of them. Know the overwhelming feeling will subside just give it some time and it will pass. Don't let your addict self convenience the part of you that wants to change that it isn't worth it. It is totally worth it. So yes i might not be able to have my surgery as soon as i would like to have it but I will have it, when im meant to and when im ready. I know this journey will take time with or without surgery. The surgery is just a tool if i don't learn how to deal with life now before it the chances of gaining it all back after is great anyway so i will keep on my journey however long is takes. Some parts of this journey will be for life and i know that. Old habits die hard BUT THEY DO DIE,  i promise.


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sticking it out

OK as you all know i was a little discouraged when i weighed in on monday and i only lost a pound however my best friend told me look at a pound of ground burger you lost one of those and so yes that was a helpful visual and i decided that when i began this journey i was going to stick it out no matter what happened even if there were bad days. So i changed a couple things first my weigh in days are now going to be friday mornings cause monday morning is way to close to my high calorie day to be accurate of the hard work i have put in the rest of the week.  Also i am going to use a visual for how much weight the weight i have lost looks like. So even if i cant see the change somewhere on my body i was missing a whole pound of hamburger from some where.

So last monday i was down one of these. Well because i didn't get to discouraged and kept on my path i am down 5 more pounds since monday. Yes you read that right since monday morning i have lost 5 lbs i am so happy with that. It also shows that not giving into temptation pays off. Last night was Halloween and who knows we as parents always pick out a couple of the best candy and eat them ourselves. Well last night i was determined i wasnt going to give into temptation and i was going to leave the fun all to the children. When we got home and the kids were going threw to find all there best candy they starting sharing with there momma who is to old to trick or treat and i gave it back to them. I was so proud of myself there was a time not to long ago i wouldnt have even thought about turning down a peanut butter cup but i totally did. My mom also got Chinese food for dinner which i love and i turned that down as well. I said i have one high calorie day a week and today isn't it so no thank you. She then began to tell me how i would probably be fine to stay in my calorie allotment for the day if i ate thus and so and i continued to decline i wasn't sure how many calories where in it and i wasn't willing to risk going over my calories for the day no matter how great the food looked or smelled. This is all a huge accomplishment for this fat chick. It means i am on the road to healthy i am on the road to breaking these addictions and on the road of self control, self worth, and health i am so excited for whats next for me. OK well everyone have a great weekend and remember if you are eating that candy count it in your plan whatever your plan is. 

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