new years resolutions

So i guess today will be the day that a bunch of people make new years resolutions this however will not be me. I have made some life goals yes but i did those months ago and not because the new year was coming but because a new me is coming. Dont wait till a new year, or a new birthday, or a reunion to do you and to make yourself feel better. Also don't wait for motivation or willpower i think all those things are crap. Just do what you need to do. Make small goals so your big goals don't seem so big but set them do them and go after what you want to achieve. But not because its a new year but because you want something different in your life.

I guess that about sums up what i had to say. I have taken the better part of a week off of dieting and i am just enjoying family time. I will be back full force on my diet come friday and starting the gym next week with a couple of my friends i never thought i would be excited about going to the gym but i am and excited to start this new chapter in my life changing. Also excited to find out when i might be having my surgery can't wait.

Well i hope my little pearls of wisdom helps someone today
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another goal met

So i maintained my weight this last week and made my weigh in today at the doctors. So what that means is everything will be submitting to the insurance company on monday that i got the approval from the doctor this morning so hopefully i will know in the next two weeks if its a go ahead of not.  I am so excited. How was everyone elses holiday ours was wonderful. A little different then usual since my grandma was sick and the roaster pan died but it worked out ok. I don't really have much else to say i just wanted to update everyone.

the waiting game

OK so first some good news i got the clearance from the head doctor for my surgery so fridays appointment went well. This friday i meet with the surgeon to see if everything is where he wants it and he signs off so we can submit to insurance.  So it occurred to me that i might still be kinda far away from surgery and i asked the nurse who also happens to be my best friend how long after we get the go ahead from insurance would surgery be. She informs me still 4-6 weeks after that so that puts me about 2 months away from surgery and thats providing the insurance company doesn't take there sweet ass time. So i have decided i am going to join the gym early and start moving this butt of mine.  So i will probably up my calories alittle bit but probably only about 100 calories i think ill have a protein shake afterward to help with recovery with my muscles and stuff. Im kinda excited to just get this stuff moving along. I guess thats about it with that stuff for now ill update you again friday and let you know if i atleast maintained my weight during the holidays.

A little tip do not just assume that a package is telling the truth with how much content is in side. I had a bag of sweet potatoes that was suppose to have 6 servings in it and it only had 3. I am telling you this because there are times where i just eat the whole bag of some of the lower calorie veggies but if i don't measure it i might be adding more calories then i am really getting. So just make sure your measuring and counting if thats the options your using for your life change.

I Pray you all have a wonderful Christmas, Pray for those who aren't and help those that you can.

Love you all Merry Christmas, as always feel free to comment, ask questions and share my blog with others.

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Goals

So i don't have a whole lot to say today just wanted to update. So yesterday i was officially over the 50 lbs lost mark. I have lost 51 lbs in less then 4 months, i can honestly say i have never done that on my own before never mind during holiday season so go me. I got to check off one of my goals on my http://dayzeroproject.com/user/gilliebean/list/80812 which is awesome and hopefully much more checks to come.

So this is my before and during picture. Its kinds hard to see the difference cause the first pic im in the pool. but i can see a difference. My bathing-suit isn't cutting into my arms and my boobs are higher. So hard to see but i defiantly can feel the difference. I have one of two very important doctors appointments tomorrow so pray it all goes well and she decides im sane enough to have the surgery. I am so proud of myself for sticking it out through all the curve balls that keep getting thrown at me. Trust me if i can do this you can too.

I guess thats about it for now, as always feel free to share my blog, as questions or make comments.

Happy life changing everyone.

stress eating and habits

So you know how they say it take 3 weeks to form new habits, Well i use to think that was bs but i have been overly stress the last couple days between my ex husband and my grandma being badly hurt and needing surgery and it occured to me that i haven't turned to food to eat my feelings away. How awesome is that, so maybe not 3 weeks but for me about 3 months. So im here praying that stays true and that i will continue to deal with life and not try to eat it away.

On the surgery front i am 3 lbs away from making weight so thats exciting hopefully in the next week or two i will know when im having surgery. I guess i don't have much else to say hoping you all are ready for christmas and don't forget the reason for the season celebrate Jesus' birth spend loving quality time with your families and be thankful for having each other.

Sending lots of holiday love.

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extremely frustrating

So i am finding myself this morning having to listen to my own advise and be patient. I haven't lost any weight this week and its extremely frustrating when you have a certain amount to lose by a certain time.
So at this point i still have 5 lbs to lose in 2 weeks which doesn't sound like it would be hard except christmas is between now and my weigh in day, theres problem one, problem two i have a baby shower to attend at a fancy place so you better believe i want to taste the food, and i have cookie making. I have to find away to do what needs to be done and hopefully still lose weight. With  my body not letting go this week it is def putting a kink in my time line. I was hoping to lose 8 lbs or so before the week of christmas so i had a couple pound give for christmas week. Now i am not going to start the awful circle of being upset so i eat crap and then i get my upset and eat more crap i am not going to do that. However i can't say it is easy to be that way. I have to fight all my fat girl impulses that really just want to say fuck it. But i know in my heart of hearts i don't want to just say fuck it i want to say you are doing this and yes you might have a bump but you will get over it and keep on going. So thats what i am doing pushing forward sticking to my plan and praying im down when i need to be. And if i haven't quiet made it to the weight i need to be before my appointment that my doctor sees all the hard work i have put in and lets us file to insurance anyway. So if you all would pray with me that would be great.

Well thats it for now everyone. As always feel free to share my blog, make comments, or ask questions.

Happy life changing everyone.

blogs

So i have been reading lots of blogs lately and i wanted to share them with you, some are in the beginning of there journeys some have come full circle.

http://www.300poundsdown.com/  This is the one im currently reading and its great she has had the surgery and so has her brother and he lost 250lbs how awesome is that, this blog is inspiring me and making me realize that even tho this woman and i were the same size how luck i am cause i don't have and real problems besides being fat.

http://perfectlyme355.blogspot.com/  I have read this whole blog and she isn't fairly new to this journey so if your in the beginning this might just be the blog for you to learn and grow with

http://iamawinningloser.blogspot.com/ This lady is over a year in and i have gone back and read her whole blog its very motivating and to see all her obstacles and shes still doing it wonderfully written

http://bbubblyb.blogspot.com/  This is the next one im gonna go threw and read from the beginning but first i must finish the one im reading lol.

Last for now but certainly not least. this blog is awesome and she is teaching you how to love you and except your body where ever you are in your journey i love the way she writes and the topics she is tackling.
http://newfigureforward.blogspot.com/

Now there are much more blogs in my browser waiting for me to read but these are the ones i have tackled all the way or getting ready to tackle and that i suggest to all of you.

Now as for me and my week. I lost 4 lbs this past week which leaves me with 5 more lbs to lose for my surgery. however i don't have tons of time to lose it which mean probably no christmas cookies for me.

I also got myself a Fitbit for christmas and so far so good. I am still learning it but its great it feels just like im wearing a watch which means it doesn't make me feel like i have to go out of my way to use this thing.  Also it syncs up with myfitnesspal.com which means i didn't have to learn a new food tracker which for me was totally exciting. heres the link if you want to check it out. I got my off hsn.com so i could make payments on it and not have to have the full 100 bucks up front.  http://www.fitbit.com/

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Not really sure what to write about today but feel i need to write something. So im so proud of myself which in this condition doesn't happen often.  I have been emotional the last couple days probably cause im not eating my feelings anymore so when they come i have to feel the damn things. So heres my point i haven't eaten my feelings away at all. I feel the feelings and the hunger that isn't really there and move past it and it goes away. The lady i have to see before surgery has been working with me on using a wise mind and not let my emotions take over and its working. I sit i think am i really hungry, whats going on, is eating when i don't need fuel really gonna take away the feeling and the answer is no its just gonna make me feel like shit for screwing up what im trying to hard to achieve. I am also totally excited about the transformation thats happening. using my wise mind, the weight coming off, being an active part in my own life, and i can't wait to achieve all my goals and make new ones, how exciting is that. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel even tho its still so far away.  As for my surgery i have 7 more lbs to lose so we can submit to the insurance yippy.


Now for some food finds
This is preportioned already ready rice how awesome is that and they were only a dollar a piece at wally world.

Now i know you can't really tell what this is but its damn yummy. I take fake meat crumbles brown them a little bit, with stewed tomatoes, onions, mushrooms and yellow squash and yummy, makes a lot of food, i think all together it was 300 calories but kept me full for hours its a good one to make.

This is my version of fried potatoes and onions, its only 100 calories and i didn't fry them lol. I used yellow baby potatoes which are 80 calories for 3/4 of a cup diced up, I but some spray butter in the pan just to keep it from sticking, and sauteed it up with the lid on to make moisture and yummy yummy. The other thing on the plate is a fake meat black bean burger and these have tons of flavor and only 110 calories. Look at all that food for dinner and only 210 calories how awesome. 

Well i guess thats it for now, as always feel free to comment, share, and ask questions i love hearing from you all. 

happy life changing everyone